LycanTheory
Nature's Best Friend
Phoenix rescued me at a point in my life when I'd become so full of hate for the world and everything in it that all I could see was darkness. Her intense eyes and warm smile seemed to have the ability to peer right through any anger or frustration I felt and reach me, connect with me in a way that no one else could.<br style="background-color:#ebe6df;color:#000000;font-size:11px;text-align:justify;" /><br style="background-color:#ebe6df;color:#000000;font-size:11px;text-align:justify;" />It takes years worth of understanding, consistency, patience and love to restore someone after they've broken. We found each other in May of 2007 and for nearly 4,800 consecutive days, she gave me that. She was a rock when nothing in life was certain, someone who always loved me when it felt like no one else in the world cared. She was a bright and fiery beacon, gleaming through the darkness when it felt like all was lost.<br style="background-color:#ebe6df;color:#000000;font-size:11px;text-align:justify;" /><br style="background-color:#ebe6df;color:#000000;font-size:11px;text-align:justify;" />Five career changes, two kids, three or four states, the destruction and subsequent rebuilding of my relationship with my human partner, enough tears to fill a river, so many emotions and memories that I can't even speak. She was there, always, without question or fluctuation.<br style="background-color:#ebe6df;color:#000000;font-size:11px;text-align:justify;" /><br style="background-color:#ebe6df;color:#000000;font-size:11px;text-align:justify;" />She's done so much more for my family and myself than any human possibly could, all without ever speaking a word. She's been my hero, my therapist, she's been a maternal figure to my kids when their own mother was stricken with mental illness. She gave everything until the very last moment when she had no more left to give.<br style="background-color:#ebe6df;color:#000000;font-size:11px;text-align:justify;" /><br style="background-color:#ebe6df;color:#000000;font-size:11px;text-align:justify;" />I couldn't have made it these last 13 years without her. I don't know if any of us could have. Some might say "they don't make em like that anymore", I'd argue they never made em like that to begin with. She was very unique, irreplaceable...<br style="background-color:#ebe6df;color:#000000;font-size:11px;text-align:justify;" /><br style="background-color:#ebe6df;color:#000000;font-size:11px;text-align:justify;" />I'm at peace with her passing and I'm at peace with how she went. I'm struggling to fix this... Feeling that a large part of my heart was shattered and my very soul ripped away. There's a silver lining, though. She gave us her entire life so that I could have a second chance at mine. That's heavy and it's something I will honor until I draw my own last breath.<br style="background-color:#ebe6df;color:#000000;font-size:11px;text-align:justify;" />
In peace may you leave this place, In love may you find the next.
In reverence will I ever hold your memory.
In warmth, please hold my heart.
Until we meet again...
In peace may you leave this place, In love may you find the next.
In reverence will I ever hold your memory.
In warmth, please hold my heart.
Until we meet again...
