Reflections

The chorus of the morning songbirds was hypnotic against the beautiful pink backdrop of the sunrise. I wandered onto the balcony enjoying the sounds, the fresh air against my skin and the serenity of the world here. My mind felt notably more at ease, cleansed somehow, the darkness was lifting as had my anxiety. It felt good being with Mykah and Kobus especially being under their guard as neither had left my side since I walked in. I’d felt so desperately alone and abandoned but now their presence held an air of protection over me as if they knew I needed support.

I glimpsed at the clock, 6.09am. Kobus partly asleep the doorway and Mykah, snoring & stretched across the bed like an annoying boyfriend. I stood watching them, letting my mind wander & reflect back over the past few days. I didn’t understand how to process the emotions fully but I knew the hatred and resentment towards them was unfair and misplaced. I was happy that the negative feelings had mostly passed and a wave of relief brought a tear of happiness. I climbed back into bed wriggling my way under the sheets trying to get a share of the duvet from under Mykah. A push turned into a shove and quickly we were both back in silly mode. I flung the sheets over his head and barked loudly in his ear, he darted out onto the floor, patted his paws out dropping his chest to the floor and barked. “Whats up dog? Get kicked out? It’s my bed and I’ll fight you for it” I unnerved myself slightly as I was sure my inner voice said “I’ll fuck you for it” but I couldn’t be sure whether I thought that or actually said it, in comparison to the previous 4 days I was now borderline delirious and focused on playing.
Copying his position I barked back at him, he jumped left slightly looking wildly and as my shoulders followed, he pounced right landing back on the bed beside me. My subconscious must have taken over because I threw my hip into his shoulder deliberately. I hadn’t shown any signs of sexual interest at all and wasn’t by any means planning for any, we just happened to be on the bed, but his instincts solved the puzzle. Jumping behind me, he started grabbing and humping my hip squirting over my thigh. I turned and moved to where I thought I should be quickly becoming increasingly desperate for him. In that moment, he was all that mattered. This is all that existed and all that I wanted. My lechery bringing me close to tears as he grabbed me, his claws digging into the front of my thighs, squeezing me, humping, hurling me around with alarming ease.
He clawed over my calf & I moved my knees wider, this was the key that unlocked us. A warm furry pressure pushed against my lips and he was inside me, bringing my first orgasm with him. Pounding like crazy the wetness inside me overflowed down my thighs and the pressure of his swelling coming at the exact moment of my orgasm, his slamming forced me forwards, pushing my face into the bed muting my screams in a beautifully controlled ferocity.

My orgasm was passing quickly as the pressure of his size built, his inner thighs somehow rubbing my hips, his pace slowed, his weight shifting over me, he came to rest with his weight over my back pinning me in place.
Another orgasm was fast approaching & my yearning and lust for him unnerved me.
My impending orgasm seemed to hang , waiting for its trigger, and feeling the first jet of his cum unleashed the explosion & my spasms quickly matched his.
He’d risen up somehow behind me at an odd angle which made him feel much deeper inside me and his knot wedged firmly on my g-spot. His back leg pushing in the small of my back as his front leg brushed the side of my breast and he shifted awkwardly as claws drew sideways across my shoulder blades. More movement behind me & his cock pulsed harder and faster and then tugging, god that pressure was immense, the new position bringing new physical as well as mental feelings. Another forceful orgasm hit me to continue the last & I couldn’t help but to squeeze and push back on him. Another brush of fur across my lower back followed by more stinging on my calf, his weight was now gone but his formidable cock firmly remained. Without his weight on me, my thrashing had a much greater impact as the angle of my hips and shoulders changed how he felt inside me but I also felt a strong sense of being exposed, released somehow, like he’d left me emotionally. I no longer had his warm fur over me, no longer could I feel his panting through his chest, I no longer felt held, and he no longer felt present.

My ardent craving for his love was interrupted by a large spasm which caused my hips to lift into him jolting him inside me. I suddenly felt like an object, like my only purpose to him was as if I were simply a sexual vessel for him to fill, a feeling which turned from disappointment to extreme arousal alarming quickly.
The new and profuse sensations had their own distractions and conjured an acceptance of purpose much like the battle suffered by Louis De Pointe in Interview With The Vampire, although my destructive relationship had been with myself.
He was still colossal, of that there was no doubt, but the pulling and rolling of my hips changed the pressure points. 3 different orgasms in quick succession left me weary. I lifted my body, flattening my back & straightening my arms, catching glimpse of my discarded underwear on the floor. My eyes blurred, a vision in the mirror came into focus of myself, from the chest backwards, my torso bent beneath Mykahs tail, him turned behind me standing between my legs with his head low, his tongue hanging and panting. It didn’t look real, serene almost, I noticed a twitching at the base of his tail in sync with his pulsating inside me and a matching contraction of my own waist, another orgasm came on fast & I was completely fixated on the image in the mirror, watching in awe as my back arched and fell, my bum muscles clenching, body bucking so much I was lifting my knees off of the bed, and all the while his strength and power held him firm. I had to stop watching to stuff my face back into the mattress and let myself go, screaming until my throat burned.

The rhythm of his pulsating slowed, the comforting warmth had spread throughout my waist and a long but gentle orgasm waved back and forth masking the pressure slowly fading in me. Staring at the mirror I watched as he turned looking behind himself & he wiggled slightly as a viscous jolt of pain and electricity tore through my spine. His cock literally exploded out of me followed by a huge flood gushing down my thighs. I was utterly captivated by the sight of his immense cock & I realised I’d never actually seen it fully before. It swung beneath him almost touching the bed, jerking rhythmically & squirting each time. My inner voice sounded alarmed “he’s still cuming!” This must mean he was cuming inside me the entire time! My throat burned from my gasp and a surge of pride ran through me, “the gush was all cum”. I sat up on my heels, a warm glow still high in my waist but feeling empty, and very very stretched, I looked down at the drenched bed and gasped again in disbelief.
Looking back at his cock the size was incomprehensible but I now understood the shape and could match it to the physical feelings, even though I couldn’t understand how I’d managed to take all that inside me. I looked at myself, red faced, fucked, beaming yet bedraggled, a very happy object, movement caught my attention. Kobus. He was standing in the doorway staring straight at me with such intensity he made me tingle all over. With silence in my mind, seconds felt like an eternity as we held our stare, I turned my ass to him and slid down onto the floor, I heard him walking as my knees landed on the scrunched up sheets, leaning over the bed & laying my cheek in the giant wet patch which would have been gross if it wasn’t for his weight landing on my back like a train hitting me from behind. I shuddered at the memory of his last assault and begged this to be no different. A hot wet poke on my thigh, a squirt over my clit, pressure on my lips from the fur around his sheath, grunting at feeling the tip of his cock in perfect position I pushed back & snarled at him as he entered me “grrrr come on then cunt” there’s what I needed to feel. He rammed into me full tilt in one hard thrust, his onslaught almost like a punishment move for my taunting him.
I screamed into the mattress, digging his claws into me it felt like he was pulling me backwards to ram himself into me that extra bit deeper, an orgasm came on fast and fuck he was getting big. His power and strength violently slammed me against the bed & my orgasm hit me with a similar brutality as he relentlessly pounded me. I could feel his balls banging my clit with every thrust and the gushing down my thighs felt like a waterfall, his tail was brushing my inner thigh somehow and whatever his cock was doing was causing an increasing stabbing pain I actually liked. Being against the bed wasn’t my brightest idea as I had nowhere to go & I took the full brunt of his assault. He was painful now but I didn’t care. Something had changed and I embraced the pain with an urgent willingness. I didn’t actually care about anything anymore other than taking him and taking everything he had to give. My arms reaching out across the bed I found the cold of the wall as his thrusts began to change and slow just like Mykah. I tried holding my orgasm back but it was pointless. I pushed myself into him as hard as I could meeting his forward thrust perfectly. The pain changed and his cock jerked and ballooned in me as my muscles crushed him with everything I had. He was so huge he made my pelvis ache and I could feel my insides freaking out trying to push him out as well as desperately trying to hold him in.

The pressure was still spreading I’d clenched so tightly I was rocking back and forth with him, my inner muscle spasms clamping down in a rhythmic response to his pulsating as if this was the most natural thing in the world.
With his full body weight slumped on my back pushing my face into the cum soaked sheets, he felt much bigger this time both on me and inside me. His hot breath blowing across my ear, little whimpers escaped him as I came, his pulsating felt stronger too but very different in that sometimes I felt his knot pulse sometimes and other times his cock. His balls twitching against my clit was sublime but I couldn’t feel the jets of him cuming anymore, only the pulsating and warmth which had risen so high I could feel it everywhere. He tugged and kept a gentle pull & fearing the pain of Mykah’s explosion I pushed back the best I could but he kept moving backwards and I had no option but to wrestle myself back with him. A small orgasm washed through me & my chest was now at the edge of the bed with his weight still on top of me. I pushed into him & wrestled an orgasm as I turned my shoulders sliding off of the bed, freeing myself from his weight but now a twisted heap against the bed base. His weight shifted wedging me down and I found myself completely pinned wishing I could see the mirror.
Not only was I stuck, my contorted form meant I was inadvertently pushing upwards underneath him which he clearly enjoyed because for the next minute or so he grew bigger inside me again and maybe even regaining some of his solidity.

A strange orgasm had been coming and going and it now made itself known from a new place inside me. It emanated from his knot, waving up into my chest, surging back down and bursting out through my vagina literally flooding my thighs and calf’s. It followed close rhythm behind his pulsations making me wonder if I was in fact draining him even though I could feel a river making its way between my breasts.
I tried to move when I felt him softening but I was too aware of my thigh being frighteningly close cramping. I rocked my hips around feeling his fur brushing against me, pausing only long enough to realise he was moving too. The pressure returned as he tugged & I moved as quickly as I could feeling another long but gentle trickle run down my thighs. A lapping tongue landed, Mykah, his tongue was going everywhere eagerly. I felt Kobus pulling me & I lifted beneath him causing my body to freak out as pain fired in every direction along with a hard hitting orgasm as his cock twisted and burst out of me.
A torrent of cum gushed down my thighs which Mykah eagerly licked. As I tried untangling myself, the cum draining from me simply fuelled Mykah’s enthusiasm but the sheer volume made his efforts appear pointless. An almost endless trickle poured out of me with the occasional surges. I was completely fixed on watching it drain from me and pooling on the rug beneath. Indescribable feelings of lust, bewilderment, desire, and perplexity, all kept my thoughts muted and silent.

I turned to the mirror, stunned at the woman I saw looking back at me. My face and neck in various shades of crimson with my veins looking like they were about to burst through my skin, scratches covered my thighs and a stream of cum which ran from my clit to my breasts glistened in the light, I don’t know why but I wiped the length of the trail, tasted my fingers then offering them to Kobus. Mykah had given up on being ignored and began to shove my shoulders from behind. I watched myself in the mirror and folded forward pulling my chest down to my knees with my ass up high and my chin on the floor.
His nose immediately planted against my bum as his tongue plunged into me, curling around and twisting inside me taking my breath away, only occasionally withdrawing to work my ass and thighs before diving back inside me. Nothing existed anymore besides lust. Going on instinct alone, I wiggled my ass rocking back and forth.
Watching myself, watching him, watching his face as he jumped on my back, watching my own expression as he landed, unconsciously opening my knees searching for our key position. Our eyes met as I felt him enter me & I watched in pure extacy as he ravaged my cunt a second time.
 
I can't express enough how beside myself delighted I am that you have found peace with yourself, and can find joy in what we unreasonably have to hide from others, for their complete lack of mental clarity. Never forget that other people's mental blockage and vindictiveness forces us to have to hide who we are, under severe penalty. But don't let that weigh on your own personal peace.
 
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