Suppress Sexual Urges?

[Ara]

I'm a virgin. I have never had any sexual experiences yet but my urges are all straight and mostly zoophile. I would accept a human though, they are still somewhat appealing but they are much more complicated and I'm very unfetishistic, so my sexuality with humans is seen as very boring by other people. I honestly would like to do it almost like an animal, plain and simple, and making sure we both enjoy it that way, that's why I'd choose an animal (some of them also look more appealing to me than humans). In my case, zoophilia is not a fetish, it's part of my actual orientation, and changing an orientation is relatively possible, but unhealthy in my opinion. If you have a problem with your orientation, my first suggestion would be to try to fix it instead of trying to get completely rid of it. I wasn't always a zoophile, in fact, I was almost asexual until not long ago. I didn't have any strong sexual urge. So now, being a zoophile with strong urges feels pretty bad sometimes, because I just don't have the means to achieve my actual urges. I don't even have my own home yet (a private place) and am struggling with jobs so it I'll be stuck in that regard for a long time (and I would never rape or cause any harm to an animal just because of my sexual urges). But still, I wouldn't give my orientation up if it was possible, because even though it's a thing I haven't yet done and won't be able to do in any near future, I still hope I can achieve it someday without any harm because it would give me a satisfaction other things couldn't give. What I mean is that is probably worth it despite all this time not being able to do it. It's also better psychologicaly to embrace your sexuality than repressing it. If you ask me, this zoophile thing was in my mind since long ago but I was just repressing it subconsciously until I discovered it and embraced it. I just think that's healthier.