11-28-2017, 02:55 AM
"...no fear of being let down or judged..." is more often than not the only "reason" to "become" a "zoo" for many. But for me, this is similar to becoming gay because you hate of feel uncomfortable with women (or a lesbian if you hate/feel uncomfortable with men). In my opinion, animals are often used as easy to manage and non demanding fallbacks by people who have trust issues, psychological/mental issues etc.
One fairly prominent example of this special form of "zoophilia" is George Willard a.k.a. Mark Matthews a.k.a. "The horseman". In his book, Willard offers us insight into the mind of a very obvious misogynic man that keeps a pony in his garage so he can get his rocks off whenever his wife isn´t in the mood...Willard also included this "animals don´t judge you and are easier to deal with" phrase in his book and anyone who endured reading through this bullshit bible will quite effortlessly draw the same conclusions as I did back then when the book came out...during reading, my feelings of "This guy isn´t even close to what it means to be a zoophile" exponentially increased.
I never experienced similar thoughts, I never expected a relationship to be solely for my needs as Willard and all the "substitute zoos" obviously do. Relationships are an investment of feelings, expectations and emotions...but like in every other investment, you can "lose the bet". It is exactly this "angst" of being hurt that drives these individuals towards "zoophilia" . Lack of control, having to deal with another person with different needs and ideas, dissent, having to give rather that take, having to abstain from some things...all of that are pretty idiotic "reasons" to turn towards animals. The "love" these people feel is basically self love. Real love hurts...and it always carries the potential to get hurt emotionally.
When I was young, just realising my sexual orientation when I was 15/16, I martyred myself with this question. I kept questioning myself whether my orientation is a result of enormous sympathy for horses or the result of antipathy for women/humans/society/whatever or fear of getting emotionally hurt in a relationship. Today, I still cannot answer this question fully, but I found out I don´t have issues with women and I don´t fear the downsides of a relationship. It isn´t that what keeps me from women, it´s just that I am not at all interested in mating with a female human. I can have friendships with women, some of them even very deep ones, but when it comes to the "highest level" of friendship where sexuality is a vital part of it, I´m just not interested. It just feels wrong to me. And btw, the notion that relationships with animals are unproblematic is so blatantly wrong in itself and is only sustained by the vast ignorance many "zoos" sport in regards of animal behaviour. It surely is easier to turn a blind eye to the needs and personality of an animal, especially when these animals are the most domesticated ones mankind has produced.
It basically all boils down to that simple question: Are you really interested in your animal or are you just interested in what this animal can provide you with? How much are you willing to give for your animal? And how much of that would be left if your animal would deny you any sex from now on? Each and every zoophile has to do some introspection in himself to answer these questions..that is, if he really wants to find out whether he really is a zoo or not. Ending up in "zoophilia" only because you flee proper human relationships that demand you to give in to your human partner in some extend is NOT zoophilia. This is egotism and choosing the path with the least resistance to get laid, none more and none less.
"...I´m not allowed to be myself..." No, just no. What you aren´t allowed is to have sex with an animal. And what you "aren´t allowed" either is openly promoting your sex life in public. You still can learn to remain silent about your PRIVATE life and no one will ever care about what you do when you´re home alone with your animal. If the animal does not show any behavioural changes or injuries, chances are pretty high no one will give a shit about you being a practicing zoophile in your entire life.
"Silentium aurum est"...silence is golden. This proverb maybe is the most fitting for zoophiles and basically every conflict we zoos have with society is based on a violation of this fundamental proverb´s advice. May I remind you that there was a time BEFORE the Enumclaw incident when nobody, not even the authorities cared too much about people fucking animals? Only the worst idiots were caught, those who seem to be incapable even spelling "self protection" and "reasonable and moderate behaviour"...I can only stress how much of the current hostile situation we found ourselves in has been our own fault by failing to self moderate us and our entire scene. Society isn´t as bad as we like to portray it, isn´t sporting an "inherited hate" for zoophiles...much of the hostility we face today was well earned by all the sick and distorted stuff that made it into the headlines and is currently displayed by animal pornography. We zoos never managed to disconnect from the fetishists and perverts and so we´re thrown into the same drawer with them...and if someone like me appears to voice out how inefficient and moronic , how onesided and egotistical our ideas, expectations and demands are, he´s branded a looney, a hater or a "Nestbeschmutzer" (defiler of the nest) instead. Criticism isn´t appreciated in our circles, the trenches have been dug deep on both sides of the frontline, the "us versus them" mentality has prevailed...and also brought us to this exact point in history, with worldwide bans of "zoophilia".
I can only report what I´ve experienced in more than 22 years of living with my Hannover mare in several public boarding stables..people aren´t as hostile as it often is said in our community. People knew or at least suspected that my mare and me were a genuine couple everywhere we were. But I never had to go through a witchhunt or experienced direct opposition. No one threw me under the bus for my sexuality. But I kept it out of their sight, I have to add. I am very much aware of how traumatising it can be for Joe Average to discover that this guy over there sleeps with his mare..I always thought that tolerance has to be mutual to work out. As much as I wanted to be tolerated (not to be mistaken for what most people think it means..."tolerare" is Latin for "to endure something you aren´t content with" rather than "I expect a pat on the shoulder for being an animal fucker"), I also understood that I had to be tolerant in regards of NOT forcefully confronting "normal" people with my sexuality. My life in these boarding stables was some kind of a mutual agreement of silence..."If you keep your weird stuff to yourself and moderate, we won´t talk about it".
So, my advice for you would be: Keep your sexuality to yourself. No one needs to know what you´re doing in your bedroom as long as it isn´t negatively influencing your animal. Have some respect for society that still recovers from the LGBT movement´s changes brought into society. You can only bend structures in a certain amount before they break..and much of the backlash, the antis , the laws and everything stems from denying this simple fact. You cannot teach by word, you have to teach by example. Just be a moderate, mentally stable, reasonable, responsible and caring genuine zoophile, that absolutely suffices to influence society. Quit the drama queen bs and live your life the best way possible instead of constantly complaining about "unjust society"...and even if you don´t leave a mark, you at least have lived a pleasant life with your animal. That´s what counts in the end. Don´t complain, live. Your time is limited and so is the time of your animal. Are you really gonna waste it in fighting for a lost cause ("zoophile rights") that will mostly benefit those among us who will inevitably abuse these "rights" to make a happy buck with animals (animal porn), those who are just in it for quick and easy access to "horse cunts" and "dog dicks"? Seen in the light of objectivity, all these laws against "zoophilia" affect the real zoos the least and the most despicable ones the most. And if just one animal is spared from a "zoo" asshole blatantly abusing it by the "unjust" laws, I´m absolutely willing and prepared to live with the increased danger for my mares and myself. Zoophilia should always put the animals first, even if that means remaining calm when laws against "zoophilia" are installed worldwide. If every zoo would finally learn to stand by themselves and what they are without that stupid drama and the urge to tell the world that they like to fuck with animals, we´d be several steps ahead. You have to justify your deeds solely for yourself, so let´s stop this fishing for assurement once and for all. True love will prevail.And until that happens, keep yourself and your animal safe at all costs, even if this means to be condemned to a life of silence. In the end, this is the most benefitting choice, compared to the fuss all these "zoo rights activists" have made in the past...massively contributing to the current situation. Silentium aurum est.
