01-20-2018, 01:09 PM
Before I start talking about this personal problem, I wanna point out the fact that everyone has a sex drive, and repressing it can cause various issues to your well being, furthermore that I love animals, but I do have sexual needs, please don't get the wrong idea about this..
With that being said, I haven't had sex in well over a year, and I feel like im going crazy, I feel alone and depressed, it doesn't help that my health took a turn for the worst; I keep finding myself wanting one last time with an animal, to feel some sort of physical bond again, but I don't see it happening as my current dog isnt sexually attracted to me...
Ive been finding ever since I started being abstinet, I don't find enjoyment in much of anything anymore, (feeling sick all the time doesn't help either) I've lost interest in all my old hobby's, life seems completely dull and I feel unloved, it doesn't help that my dog won't even show simple affection..
On top of my suppressed feelings for my friends dog, which I may add I've been having several dreams about him lately, some sexual some not, I dont know what to do, this lack of love from my own dog, and lack of sex for so long, combined with my longing to be with my soulmate, when I know my time is running to short to have that chance is making my life feel pointless.. I guess the positive side is this will all come to an end as soon as I take my last breath..
