How to deal with lack of contact with horses?

[Saturnine]

After giving this some more thought, I can begin to see the insanity that belies this problem. How do you deal with something like this?




Drugs and alcohol?




Wishing that the pain would go away by itself?




This only leaves more questions to be answered. I could sit and ask the same thing over and over again, and it wouldn't make a difference. The answers all appear to be similar to each other. At the end of the day, what is left is even more anguish over the supposedly helpful responses. I can see that the only way for this happen is to have a support system, which is not something that I can have, for various reasons. It's obvious that I can't do this myself. Therefore, the solution is to have people who actually care about me to help with this dream.




And there lies another problem. There is nobody who cares enough.