03-31-2018, 03:38 AM
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On 3/23/2018 at 4:40 AM, Saturnine said:
I guess nobody can understand how much this hurts. Fine. You all have no idea how much this is killing me inside. All I've ever wanted was to touch a horse, but it will never happen.
I don't deserve this. Why is this happening to me?
All i can say, is that you will find that most of the folks i actually know here, DO, care. Do you think the rest of us have not at some point in time been stuck in a situation where we couldn't have a companion for various reasons. Some of us have had to go years with what we loved, within sight, almost within touch, but could not actually touch them. In our own ways, while perhaps different then yours, you will that the majority(i would guess), of zoos, HAVE felt that pain, longing, emptiness, your half of you is missing.
Those of us that, that were able to find away to acquire companions, have also had to deal with LOSS!!!!!! Animals, canines, do not live as long as we do. We have suffered loss of loved one that feels like your heart has been literally ripped out, and you have no clue, how to go on living without them. You often DON"T want to go on living without them. Its a pain that lasts, and lasts. If you have been with companions your entire life you will suffer this over and OVER. It is a heart break, a soul breaking that i guarantee is MUCH worse then what you are currently feeling.
I HONESTLY TRULY Wish i had a magic wand to help you ... from the bottom of my heart i say that ... I KNOW WHAT your feeling. I have been there and FELT IT!
Unfortunately, no matter how badly i want to help you.
I can't [img]<fileStore.core_Emoticons>/emoticons/sad.png[/img]/emoticons/[email protected] 2x" title=":(" width="20" />
Only you can find a way to deal with it, if you can't touch a horse ... at least you can admire one in pictures ...
Would you like me to introduce you to a friend, who loved horses for most of his life, then had an accident that left him completely blind. He can't even SEE a horse anymore except in his imagination. He could probably feel a horse again if he could find someone to lead him to the horse. Know anyone willing to do that for him? I wish i had the answer to solve your problem, i REALLY, TRULY DO!
