05-28-2018, 09:15 AM
It´s quite obvious to outsiders because you cannot hide true love. For example, the owner of the stables my mare stood at before her death only took about 4 week until he told me that "It´s clear that you and your mare have a very special relationship with each other", only 4 weeks until he recognised although he never had seen or known me before. And in the case I described in my previous post, the owner of the small private stables already knew me for a long time from the riding club I started as a hobby rider, became an apprentice and finally became a riding teacher. I even suspect that my "special relationship with horses" was what made her offer me the last box in her stables. Despite being one of those "animal fuckers", I literally was "handpicked" by her. So I hadn´t an adrenaline rush or flight reflex when overhearing her and her father. It still was kinda unpleasant to hear for me...if you lead a life so entirely dependent on not giving away your orientation, you cannot deny the pinching stings of subconscious fear.And no, you cannot imagine the grimace I was displaying...thank god that I wasn´t in company of anyone else or my face would have signalled "Guilty as charged!", but only for a millisecond... [img]<fileStore.core_Emoticons>/emoticons/wink.png[/img]/emoticons/[email protected] 2x" title=";)" width="20" />