11-18-2019, 02:54 PM
Intimacy, much less any contact, with a horse will remain out of reach. Unfortunately, it will never happen again. I've had my fun, but it's over now. The only thing that can get my mind off this is by working as much as I can, saving as much money as possible, even though I'll have nothing to use any of it for.
It pains me so much that I honestly don't know what I'm going to do. I'll go through stages of wanting to kill myself and not having the energy to even do that. I know that I'll always be alone. No real friends or horses to keep me sane, but at least I'll have a lot of money.
