Saw some things you wrote. If you want someone to talk to, there's a bitmessage address in my profile. I'm not around much and might only reply on sparse weekends, and I can't help you get animals. Otherwise I don't give a microscopic shit what anyone here thinks of you; if you're disingenuous I'll figure it out on my own from scratch.
Thanks, but I'm over trying to get people to talk with me. The interest is all but lost now.
I just don't want to talk about this anymore. It's not going to make things better.
Cyno is right and the offer stands. You wrote you have a disability but don't want to say anymore about it. Meanwhile (I didn't see every post but) no one asked what disability you have in this thread either (almost). That's socializing 101 and complete breakdown in communication. There's no way for anyone to understand why you have this defeatist attitude, which makes everything written meaningless and counter-productive. People will take your defeatism at face value even if it hides something deeper, meanwhile you slaughter your own chances at finding someone who might help you in the future. You probably feel like you have nothing to lose already, but that's not completely true.
Nobody is going to help me.
I'm going to bed again, never having touched a horse, just like every night before. Maybe I was wrong to assume that someone could help, and it seems that is the case.
The lack of information is king. There's not enough known about his life for anyone including me to give him an armchair diagnosis over the internet (I only vaguely remember his username on reddit). He could be a pathological attention seeker or someone with intractable depression (such that not a positive thing written on a web forum can reach him) from any cause and in several forms, related or even technically unrelated to his disability of which no one is sure of the nature (?). His attitude is a symptom of several possible problems. The best anyone can do is put themselves in his shoes to figure it out - hard to do here - but maybe try not to jump to the worst case? It's annoying someone ignores your attempts to reach out, but that's the nature of the beast.
04-02-2018, 02:22 AM
(This post was last modified: 04-02-2018, 02:46 AM by Saturnine.)
I came here seeking answers to a problem that nobody could fix. I've asked countless zoos what to do in my situation. They all gave me different answers, but none of them could give the right one. Now I see that it was unfair of me to place that kind of responsibility in the hands of others. I went about this the wrong way and kept trying to seek out that one true solution to my problem.
There is so much that I could say about my mental health that prevents me from doing things that everyone else can do. The same rule applies to my physical health especially. Talking about this only makes me angry now, and I really don't want to feel like shit anymore.
It's difficult for me to open up when I can't even think of what to say because my brain is still having trouble processing this.