I need to do this...

[Cat]

Ok I'm back, kinda.




Given the last experiences I've had, and as you know I have a distaste of being a zoophile; but given that after realizing I am fucked and I got no option since I've spent all my chances with humans and ended up failing miserably, which was to be expected but fuck it still hit me hard.




I need to do this, I need to get an animal, thing is that I don't have the courage, I am scared add to that all the paranoia and fear that surrounds this community (which was the reason I took a break), I also don't know how to even get there, if this was all about getting a pet (any species) it would be easy enough, but this is about a partner, is way more important.




Thing is that I don't know if I can count  in this community to help me get there, but I have given me a timeframe for next year spring to figure everything out; everything; and there are just many things I don't know, and if only this community could help me down breaking up the big issues into smaller issues and attacking them all.




I just gotta do it, this needs to stop being a fantasy; and I have a timeframe now I need to fullfill; so I don't know if you could help me figure this out from ground 0; like I would post the issues one by one, and then try to break them down until a solution can be found; can I count with you guys on this?... or is people going to turn down indifferent like in many cases?...