I need to do this...

[threelegs]

<a contenteditable="false" data-ipshover="" data-ipshover-target="<___base_url___>/profile/2282-cat/?do=hovercard" data-mentionid="2282" href="<___base_url___>/profile/2282-cat/">@Cat</a>, you said,




"... i hate myself so much for being a zoophile that i am partially doing this against my will ..."




Just my personal view, but I think your first priority should be to make peace with yourself about being a zoo. I had a problem with that myself for a while, so I know the intensity of the tumult. I also know that every aspect of my life became a lot easier once I'd come to fully accept myself.




Living in a closet is one of the hardest things you can do--that goes the same for self-hatred. And your choices and decisions won't be nearly as reliable until your whole being speaks with the same voice, as it were.




Take your time with this and get your inner conflict settled first.